Been sitting for hours now doing nothing but staring at my laptop checking various social medias’ updates that are nonsense and mostly crap but here I am still scrolling, reading or should I say mostly just staring. It just stopped me doing that when my mac air started making this annoying sound “Excuse me, you’re macbook need your attention, low battery.” So I finally stopped. Then grab my iphone! What am I thinking? I didn’t stop at all, I just change the source of nonsense stuff in the internet. I am still doing it. Scrolling back and forth, skimming, scanning, nothing is coming, nothing is changing. My mood is still on the same state. BLANK and COLD. I don’t feel good at all, my day was ruined, just ruined!
I’m supposed to be practicing my Zumba routine by now. I need to memorize atleast two more songs before my very first day to teach. But here I am typing everything that is running in my sad brain ———-
Pardon me. I just turned the tv and apple tv on, head on to Netflix and start typing again. I am trying to be productive here but first, I have to set the mood. I have to set aside my feelings and just move on and do what I’m supposed to be doing today! But I can’t so I am going to look for a movie now and try to entertain myself.
Nothing, Nothing stimulated my senses. Oh wait, I’ve seen one that might caught my attention, have you heard of the new original series called – Bloodline? I heard it several times but I haven’t gotten into it till today. I hope it’s good and not another waste of time.
I won’t be typing anymore for I don’t have anything else to say. I will just start doing the things I usually do everyday. I know today is just ‘another day of my life’ and tomorrow is a brand new one.
Oh YES I do love YELLOW!
Few months ago before the “MOM PROM” , I had problems looking for what to wear for the occasion. I don’t want to spend too much money for the dress I’m sure I won’t wear again for a very long time. I want something simple. that can be use in any future events, long, and ofcourse, yellow. With all that requirements, ofcourse I didn’t expect I will find one so 2 weeks before the prom, I made this dress and I am very pleased with my creation. Simple but I met all my requirements and most importantly, I didn’t have to spent too much. For this dress, beleive it or not, I only spent more or less $20 🙂
The night before the PROM
Some comparison to prices online…
I know it sounds dumb but I must admit, one of my greatest dream is to have an original JANSPORT Bagpack! There I said it!
My simple dream and I waited for a very long time! When I was in Elementary, some of my classmates have Jansport bags, I noticed If you have Jansport, you are cool! I don’t know why they are so particular with Labels and Signature stuff, I didn’t envy them at all coz in my situation that time, I know I’ll never have Jansport bag. I thought to myself I’ll buy one when I get a job someday. When I was in college and started to get a job while studying, I still didn’t buy one, why? Coz I know the difference of WANTS and NEEDS. I know I have to help my parents and siblings aside from helping myself with college tuitions and projects. And then I grauduated and finally acquired a professional Job – Teaching, minus the professional pay and still didn’t get myself one. Why? Coz there goes the time where my brother had kids and guess what? I’m sure I already gave you the reason. Then I had my own family, my priorities has changed. I didn’t thought about it for a long time until today. It’s funny coz I don’t have a job, but I have my ways, so I FINALLY bought one!!! To tell you the truth, I am so HAPPY I have crossed one off my dream list!
I finally finished this project that I have in mind for a few months now. It’s hard when you have to fit everything in your budget, this one is not a need so it was definitely in the bottom list. Thankfully I was able to catch a sale items from Hobby Store and had a time to finish it off in one day. Next, I will be buying some candle holders and probably some other decor to add with this collage frame. I wanted to visit some furniture store hoping I could find clearance items but I may have to wait til I have budget for it again.
For the meantime, let me brag my finished creation. My L Photo collage frame! Isn’t a beauty? Frames are 50% off and I had y family photos, old and new printed at ine of the closest mall in our area where all of the things you need are there! Art supply, clothing store, fast food and restaurant and you can find baker furniture here too! As much as I love shopping, I need to stay away from this place though while I don’t have a job yet (wink!)
Its 1.15 pm mid afternoon, done with all my regular stuff, cooked lunch, bought grocery, washed utensils and cleaned home. I’m too lazy but my backyard needs to be cleaned too, I need a break from my daily chores.I started surfing and looking out for some selection of good brands of accessories. It was just then when I noticed something interesting, there was a link to play bingo without going outside your home! It sounds interesting, doesn’t it? Play your favorite past time game without spending even a penny, andgoing anywhere else! New Look Bingo is one of the online bingo sites which has got unique and amazing promotions. It is filled with numerous types of games enriched with great jackpots. I was amazed to see the surprise offers and prizes at New Look Bingo. A newbie in New Look Bingo gets £15 bonus without making any deposit. So if you spend £10 then you play with £45 in all games. Let me give you a quick note of few of their promotions which I found exciting here. They are, Hot Ball Tuesdays, Wednesday Winners,Thursday happens to be Deposit ‘n’ Win Day, Flashback Fridays, and finally the Saturday Night Fever. The last day of the week is filled with surprises too, I have marked all Sundays of this month because if you can bingo on that particular date then you could win free bingo tickets worth £10. For more details click here to visit this fascinating bingo site
Fall, fall, fall, my favorite season of the year! It’s time to say goodbye to summer clothes and say hello light jackets! I thought I can still tolerate the coldness but as time goes by, temperature keeps on dropping and I can no longer last going outside with just my tank tops and shorts. So I started keeping some of my summer clothes already and started hanging my fall clothes up. I noticed I have bunch of longsleeves but only have few jackets and blazers. I really love wearing blazers during slightly cold seasons such as spring and fall.
It’s time to hit the world wide web and look for some selections. It doesn’t have to be signature ones or expensive, I am more on the design type of gal. As long as I like it and it’s not pricey, I will add it to my cart. Found several types from different stores but my eyes were trapped in a wide range of casual jackets at Zalora. I bought several items from there before and it didn’t fail me. They are all nice and affordable and I’m glad I found some cute jackets there. Aside from blazers, I might need some boots as well. I just disposed some of my old low cut boots and just bought long ones last year. That’s the thing about being stay at home mom, you hardly use your outside clothes and shoes. Needless to say, less needs less expenses. But even you’re a stay at home mom, we still need some therapy you know, and for me, once every season of shopping is not that bad at all.
Life is full of wonderful surprises only if you go out there and explore. You’ll learn new things and you’ll meet new people you never imagined you’re going to be friends with.
I’ve been staying at home since December and I thought I would never socialize anymore until I start working again. When I am still working I’ve met a lot of people but only few of them stayed and became close to me. I am glad I met them and I am glad that despited of not working together anymore, they are still there keeping intouch. Infact, we have dinner this coming Friday.
Aside from them, we have family friends too that we’re hanging out with every special occasions. They are always there to laugh with, party with and to help you when you’re in need of anything. These are our friends that we also considered as our family here in Arkansas.
Lately when my kids school began, I managed to go out again and attend classes in the gym. I’ve met new friends and more friends….and I am so happy that they are all nice to me and even offered me a ride when I don’t have the car with me. I feel very blessed and I am very thaknful!
Today, I bumped into somebody I met in the gym not so long ago and we’re going to have lunch together on Tuesday! Can you feel my excitement? Don’t get me wrong, I am not bored or anything in our house. I love being with my kids in the afternoon and I love doing house chores and some gardening when they are in school. I got tons of things to do but I really need to get out and mingle with friends. I also needed to socialize don’t you think? So, I am going out with them and will have fun!
I found myself crying for some reason while preparing the ingredients of our dinner today. Was it the onion? Definitely NO, if I am a girl of many talents, cutting onion without crying is one of them. But I guess I have an idea – my birthday is coming so soon! Yeah, for real, I get very emotional when my birthday is coming. I don’t know, that is why I am asking myself why? What’s up with my birthday? Do I want something on my birthday? No, I am not that material girl or a childish person that wants present every birthday. I grew up with nothing and I am used to have no birthday celebration since my dad died.
Now this post is making me cry again coz I remembering the very last, vivid and only memory of my birthday with my dad. It was raining, yes it’s always raining on that month. I remember my dad brought home a rain boot as my present, I was so happy and very excited to go out and walk it through the muddy street where I used to then ride in his singe motorcycle. My brothers in front of my dad, then me behind him then my mom and my baby sister behind me, all six of us. Don’t ask me how we fit in there, we just did. I remember heading to my cousin’s house which birthday is just after mine and we used to celebrate together in my other cousins’ house. That’s the only birthday I remembered with him and when he died, I never had any party anymore. Or maybe there’s some simple celebration with my grandma or aunt where I lived with when my dad died. Maybe they prepared me something during my birthday or give me presents but honestly, I don’t know if I just don’t remember or there just isn’t any coz the next birthday I remember after was when I turned 18.
It was midterm, 1st year college. Nobody knew it was my birthday, we were all busy answering our test papers. I was trying to concentrate more on my test papers rather than concentrating on thinking how pathetic I was on my very special day. My 18th birthday, my debut, where I should be wearing a fancy dress, having a party, dancing with my 18 roses and listening to every greetings of my 18 candles, opening 18 gifts like other 18th birthday celebrators I knew did when they turned 18. Then I finally realized, I am not like them. I don’t have my dad anymore that used to give me a “Happy” Birthday! We can barely buy food to put on our table three times a day, very ambitious of me to dream of such fancy birthday. Then I finally came up to my senses, my friend Rose pulled me out of the road and told me I almost got hit by the tricycle thats passing through. Wow! I didn’t even know I was close to my house already. Good thing my friend commuted home with me, if not, maybe my 18th birthday will be a tragedy. Oh well, I’m still a lucky human being I guess coz aside from my friend saved my life, I went home with a family waiting for me. I saw a banner made of manila paper with HAPPY BIRTHDAY written with crayon and some drawings of my brothers for me. They are very creative , they even turned our meal (rice and small fried mackerel) into a pretend cake with candles, sang me a happy birthday song and made me pretend blow the candle (small mackerel sticking on top of the rice).They tried, it was a touching moment but I’m still sad. And that’s how my 18th birthday was. After that night, I promised to myself that once I get a job, I will definitely throw myself a party. So I did!
It was my 19th birthday, 2nd year college when I finally had my first “official” job in this fast food chain. I threw myself a party, I invited most of my classmates in college, my aunt cooked for me, bought alcoholic beverages (18 years old is the legal age in the Philippines to drink, so yey!) and had so much fun! It was unforgettable, my very first party since my dad died.
My 20-28th birthday celebrations was with my boyfriend (my husband now) . We both have the same birth month so we celebrated together, invited our common friends and again, had so much fun! My 28th birthday was kind of different. We were in two different sides of the world, he celebrated his with friends here in US and I celebrated mine in the Philippines. First with my girl friends, we ate out, had cake and lots of laughters and gifts! Then had another party at my cousins, after long long years, there I was celebrating it again with my cousin that I used to celebrate birthdays with when we were young. That was one wonderful party!
After my 19th birthday, I dreamt of having my 30th birthday celebrated in this food chain where most kids celebrate their birthdays. Yeah, youre right -it’s a kids party. Where theres party hats, cake and ice cream, mascot, party host and lots of foods, games and goodies I never had when I was a kid. That didn’t happen but God gave me a bigger and better blessing -moving here in US! I was able to celebrate my 3oth birthday in a different way to thank the Lord for my 30th year of existence in this world and shout out to everybody how blessed I am. I hosted an online giveaway to celebrate it with my blogger friends. I had a “YELLOW” themed party with our new family anf friends in Arkansas, I have this very pretty dream come true “TWEETY BIRD” cake made by a talented friend. And lots and lots of presents I’ve ever had in my life from different countries aside from US, SG, Japan and Philippines! It was a blast and I am overly HAPPY!
Then I turned 31. I was thinking, I was satisfied with my 30th birthday and I think I am not going to have any more party or atleast wait for another milestone – my 40th. But it’s my husband’s turn that year, it’s his 30th birthday so I threw him a supposedly “surprised” Star craft theme party but he has to know about it the day before the celebration because he needs to help me preparing haha! It was another fun filled party!
Last year I turned 32 and my husband 31. We didn’t plan on having a party but since we just moved to our new house, might as well have our “first birthday” in it. We had “Beer-Ger Party” , a burger party with beers! We had lots of visitors and lots of gifts. It was a very nice celebration, we really did party hard. I think most of us got pretty drunk!
So after reminiscing all those happy moments, I am again asking myself, why the birthday blues? Is it because my husband doesn’t wanna have a party this year? I can always have another party when I get back to work. Do I want a present? I can buy myself something, oh wait, I don’t have any money. Do I have something I feel like I haven’t accomplished at this age? Hmmm…aside from a tattoo? Nothing else. I can’t figure it out. I’m just having this very sad feeling that I can’t get out of my system. I am convincing myself theres nothing to be sad about so I am hoping this will go away soon!
And here it is….”Fifty Shades of Grey” trailer and will be in cinemas on February 2015! It’s been 2 years since husband and I went to watch a movie in cinema for some of his ridiculous reasons. Well this year, I will force him to come with me and watch this movie. Yep, that’s right, I won’t miss this, I will let him mark his calendar for this, it’s a date! I can’t wait! Watching this TRAILER gives me goosebumps! So that’s how it feels huh, to watch a movie that you’ve already read from the book. I hope this won’t disappoint my expectations, it should be better that my imagination. I am hoping for that.