Ups and Downs
I am often depressed…YES but somehow I can’t figure out why?
I guess my cousin is right, I feel empty because I am not approaching GOD….
I admit I am not going to church anymore, I sometimes tend to forgot to pray…
but I am sure God is always with me…my faith is still strong.
I know that God will not stop taking care of me…I know He’s always there for me.
I am always feeling insecure…I dunno. I can’t think of any reason to feel that way…
I am sure my husband is inlove with me…and I am inlove with him too!
How come I’ve been so selfish….how come I am so jealous with so many things.
How come I can’t feel contented?! I know it’s my bad.
I wanted to take this opportunity to say SORRY to my husband.
I appreciate things he’s been doing just to make me feel better but sometimes I am still not contented….he often says I am hurting him. I feel sorry for myself….
I pity myself for being like this….I dunno how to call myself.
My problem is that I tend to base on what happened in the past that’s why I feel like it’s gonna happen again this time.
My fear in the past is still hunting me and it’s really hurting me over and over again…
I hate that feeling…I hate crying over and over again…it’s useless and energy wasting.
How I wish I could easily get over it! How I wish I could change my very sensitive feelings ….
I don’t want this feelings….I guess I should start thinking positively….
My husband said I was thinking negatively….I guess he’s right..I’ve been thinking too much lately and my dirty mind is giving me such dirty imaginations. Mostly I should always talk to God and asked his guidance. Oh God help me. Bro. Bo’s blog is helping me actually…i should continue reading that and other inspirational thoughts.