Hayz…….I really don’t understand myself nowadays. I am sometimes okay but sometimes feeling … i don’t know. I am trying to be happy but no I am not!!! I am happy with my kids, especially with my husband but there’s something missing. I don’t know really….don’t bother to ask coz i really don’t know the answer. I just wanna write about it!!! Thats it!!! Haaaaay!!!! I want to cry but I can’t figure out the reason of these tears that really wanna come out from my eyes at this moment! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!